Impetus and Insecurities

From now on this is prolly going to be a ranting space, a thinking-out-loud space, where I can post my meandering thoughts and not feel fearful of judgement. Yay!

(Writing this on the Blogger app and I have been waiting for this kind of interface all my blogging life back then and it's finally here!)

So here are my thoughts, post-patient treatment record encoding:

1. I LOVE TICK TICK. Today i reinstalled this app and I SUDDENLY REMEMBERED WHY I USED TO LOVE IT. It's like a second brain! This app is bomb but I still cannot fathom officially subscribing to the service. #nomoneymoproblems

2. I noticed that I get cynical easily. Once upon a time I wasn't like this at all. I think there was one summer when I suddenly realized that I had been taking enough crap from so many people and trying so dang hard to see the positive in everything that I just gave up and gave in--- I stopped being so optimistic and cheerful. And somehow it snowballed from there, I guess. This cynicism is something I have been seeing in myself as other people in the HC taint my perception of the nature of our work: I am tired of the perpetual annoyed tone and the whining of ppl. Maybe I need to resurrect the optimistic me.

3. Today's Gospel.

Just as we are in the middle of doing great things for God, our self-doubt and insecurities get ahold of us and weigh us down, preventing us from drawing closer to God and His vision for our life.

Today's resolution: 

Be more trusting of His plans.

Good night 🥱