Are you lonesome tonight?

I am. And I have a ton of stuff to do, too. </3

PS. I need time for my art. Time which wouldn't interfere with my academic pursuits or other responsibilities. I wanna write. I wanna paint. I wanna make music. I wanna be free.

But I cannot afford it, unfortunately. :(

My poor soul is suffocating.

Passion Pit.

Lately I've been really pushing myself to go beyond my limits. I've been trying my best to stay on schedule, study real well, and maximize every spare minute I have... In short, I've been trying to become a good student. Yeah. In the process I've decided I hafta kill some of my favorite hobbies, too. I sort-of realized there's not enough time for a struggling science student to practice at the drumkit and master the functions of all the muscles of a frog.. So one had to go. The frog kinda had my future in its manus, so you can fill in the rest and understand the context of the 'sigh' emoticon at the end of this sentence. :<

I'm clinging on to the hopes of qualifying for a good-enough standing, because no matter what I do the truth is my grades will determine my future. And that idea, surprisingly, got me going for the past couple of months. Yes, academic drive. Mygash. @_@

It was all good until Habagat came around. He somehow messed up the momentum I oh-so-carefully built up, and to make matters worse he left me with the flu, too.

College made me realize that sick days do not translate to chicken-noodle-soup-and-orange-juice-in-bed-with-TV-on-the-side. Sick days in college, as it turns out, are what they are: sick days.

When your mind is whirring with all the stuff you hafta do but you can't lift a finger.

When your cough is more troublesome than the noisy street DJ who keeps playing the same darn song over and over and over again... maybe not, but we're getting warm.

When your temp jumps from 36 C to 37.2 to 38.9 in a span of sixty minutes and you have frog muscles to memorize.

(I know, 'enough about the $#!&*@ frog muscles already!'. Okay. )

It just feels like the wind blew out the wonderful, wonderful fire I've just recently discovered, and at the moment I am not in shape to try and light one up again. :( I hope I will be soon, because I am not going to school tomorrow to get a checkup and it better pay off: I don't want to dig myself further into this pit of academic incapacity.

Sigh. Keep calm and stick to the stethoscope. [-o<
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I suddenly felt that this post didn't deserve to be all rant, because there are other things in life that break in a wee bit of sunshine despite the dreary skies. Like good books and good coffee and warm, gooey chocolate chip cookies, and good, good friends to share them with. :')

So! If you wanna see my dreams slowly making their way into reality, look at this!

*Insert angelic choir's sigh of ecstasy here*

That, my friend, is the door to my future cafe/restaurant. Yes, the one around the corner of the ol' brick building with the publishing house upstairs. And yes, feel free to drop by sometime! We'll talk about the rest of the old, creaky parts of my dream establishment over a plate of the house specialty: a strong cuppa joe and ooey-gooey chocolate chip cookies. :) Cheers!

Awwwww!

I wish I could dip my paws in some paint and turn myself into a doctor.

How I decided on the rest of my life

Back when I was trying to pick out which UP campus to attend, my decision was sorta influenced by daydreams of walking through ancient halls and marveling at awesome prewar architecture.

Well, UPM didn't turn out to be all that. :-j Maybe I'd hafta explore a bit more.

Falling in love on a Friday night

Tonight I saw 'Letters to Juliet' on Star Movies. It had a romantic (though somewhat predictable) plot, but if you don't analyze the film too much it's actually a fun way of getting your kilig on. The idea of desperate women asking for advice from the infamous lovelorn Capulet through the wall is fantastic in itself, but having those wonderful Italian women---Juliet's 'secretaries'---write back and reply was so magical, I wish I could ask them myself. HAHAHA <///3 The best part was the scenery. The beautiful little houses with romantic wrought-iron balconies, the cobblestone streets, the sidewalk cafes, the foooood...oh Italy, Italy, Italy. You can have me anytime.

Oh, and did I mention that I COMPLETELY ADORE SOPHIE'S SATCHEL? I was drooling over it the whole time. I think I paid more attention to the bag than to Amanda Seyfried (sorryyyy!). See, when I was little my dad had a satchel which he used for carrying around his video camera (the big, bulky kind from the 90s), and when my mum wanted to sell it I asked for it na lang. Despite its condition (the seams and stitches are falling apart) I still love it with all my ♥ . Maybe I'm just associating the idea of the bag with my Dad, but whatever. All that matters is me gustaaaaaa. @-)

Gimme one of these and I will be eternally grateful. In fact, I just might start building you a shrine in my room this very moment. I will use it everywhere: school, work, travel, I can even sleep hugging this baby. :3

So there, two big additions to my Dream list. :)) IKR, mababaw. Pero okay lang yan. I haven't been well these past few days, so watching a happy movie took my mind off my cold for an hour or so. Soon I'd have to think about Philo and Chem and Kom again... oh well. To quote my good friend NINO GANA, 

C'est la vie.

And I finally figured that one out. :> Have a great weekend! :D

How I wish this was the view outside my bedroom window.

On a good day it'd look like this. On a dreary one, like this. It ain't half bad. :)) Photos not mine. :))

HELLO, CHRISTMAS VACATION. I HEART YOU.

Mahirap ang uninspired.

Lalo na kung dalawang linggo na lang sem break na.

Lalo na kung isang linggo na lang finals na.

Lalo na kung gusto mong magsipag, magsumikap, at magsuog ng kilay hanggang kinabukasan, pero pagod at hapong hapo na ang iyong katawan at ang gusto na lang gawin ay matulog.


Gusto ko namang magsipag eh, sadyang... pagod lang ako. :/

Hay. :<

I knew it! GOD READS MY BLOG!

CLASSES SUSPENDEEEED. ILY, LOOOORD! \:D/ :)))))

That means I hafta be a serious college kid tomorrow. No slacking off, no distractions, no excuses.

SERIOUS STUDENT MODE.

Pag hindi ko nagawa ang mga sumusunod, ililibre kita sa Pisay caf ng isang meal. :> :))

1. Histo HW
2. Histo LT review notes
3. Math reviewer part I
4. Math exercises

That's about it.

PS! I changed my blog design a bit today! Nainggit kasi ako sa Christmas countdown ni Justin kaya naglagay din ako. :) Tapos naisipan kong ibahin ang colour scheme ng aking blog, sooo I came up with this palette:

And I was dying to try it out. Heehee. Watcha think of the colours? :)

If I don't become a doctor, I'll be a colour analyst. :> Or a downtown intellectual. HAHAHAHAH

PPS! I want to have an exhibit someday. Not all visual works, though. I want an exhibit that will satisfy all the senses and stimulate the mind. I have so many ideas for installations and other things, and I am dying to bring 'em to life. But I do not have the means  (nor the connections) to breathe life into my daydreams. /wrist

Interested? Drop me a line. =))

Come onnnnnnn, suspensiooon!

I know the Math depex is on Thursday.

I know the Histo lt is on Friday.

But jhgfdswertygfdsaqwertyujhgfdsa I ran up and down the SSWC building 30 times today. I am so tired. I need sleep. Last time I checked, sleep was a basic human right. Or is it?

Pero swear. Pag nasuspend ang klase, gagawa ako ng requirements buong araw. As in serious student mode. Pupunta pa ako ng Tutorlink para magpaturo, masuspend lang. >_<

Dear Lord, I know that somewhere, somehow You're reading my blog. Hear me out, along with the 987654321234567 thousand other students who are wishing for a suspension at this very moment. [-o<